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                                蒋牧想再争取一下他和韩栗之间的感情。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                坦诚说,如果说他们的感情已经浓烈到难舍难分或者多么刻苦铭心,确实还没有深厚至此,像他和韩栗这样年龄和这样经历的人,很难再像年轻时那样天雷勾地火、浓烈到能把人随时燃烧。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                他们都很冷静,也很理智,所以相处起来很舒适。当然,舒适不代表没有感情没有爱,只是爱和感情分很多种而已。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                一段张弛有度的关系,对他们来说都太难得,也太重要了,他寻寻觅觅这么多年,终于找到,所以不愿意轻易放弃。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                韩栗也很坦承:“对不起,是我走不下去了。还有我觉得我的性格不适合谈恋爱,因为我处理不好亲密关系。至少现阶段不适合。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                蒋牧眸光黯淡:“理解。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                没有过多需要再说的。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “你会恨我吗?”韩栗问,走到一半,对方没有任何错,她自己退缩了,她觉得很对不起他。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                蒋牧却笑了笑:“为什么要恨你,是我先追的你,而且这一段时间我很开心也很幸福。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                韩栗知道他会这么说,所以并不会觉得好受。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                蒋牧收起了笑意,悠悠说了一句:“不能一直走下去,会有遗憾,很遗憾。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                韩栗鼻尖又有些发酸,她也觉得很遗憾,他这么好的一个人。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “之前你说有人给你算过命,你会孤独终老,我当时说,你如果孤独终老,我也孤独终老,不是开玩笑,也不是为了让你开心,而是我知道,如果和你这么好的人都走不下去,那跟别人更走不下去。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                蒋牧摇摇头:“你不要给自己设限,随心而走。不用急,一年两年、甚至几年后,你会知道现在这些都不算事。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                他也曾谈过几个女朋友,每一段的结束或多或少都会留有一点遗憾,但这些遗憾会很快被时间冲淡。就如她曾问过他是否有让他产生结婚生子念头的女孩时,他说不确定,因为这对他来说是幻想也是奢望,对方有很好的感情,对方的另一半也是他无法企及的高度,他从头到尾不过是一场不为人知的单恋而已,这份单恋在年轻时那么刻苦铭心,到如今不也释然了?
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                所以没有迈不过去的坎。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                韩栗点头:“嗯,我知道。还有你说我值得世间所有美好,谢谢你,蒋牧,这句话我也想对你说,你也值得这世间所有美好,因为你本来就是一个美好的存在。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “我们都好好的。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “最后抱一下。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “好。”蒋牧绕过中岛台到她的面前,两人紧紧相拥,给予最后的一点温暖和安慰。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                成年人的分手平和,冷静而克制,如同他们的开始。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                蒋牧当晚就离开了她家,她心里虽觉得空空荡荡的,却不会太难过,和蒋牧的这段感情,让她体验过一种美好,也让她成长了很多,她不曾后悔。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                韩召意因为蒋牧的离开,安静地坐在沙发的一角,双眼怯怯地看着她问:“妈妈,蒋叔叔是不是生我的气了?他以后还来吗?”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                韩栗抱了抱他:“蒋叔叔没有生你的气,他刚才离开时不是说欢迎你随时去他的店里玩吗?如果有喜欢的车型,可以告诉他。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “那妈妈,你会难过吗?”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “有一点点。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “妈妈,我抱抱你,你不要难过。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                韩栗伸手把小小的他抱在怀里,一直漂浮的心,此刻格外安定,有他就够了,这一辈子有他就够了。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                也许走过错路,也许也走过弯路,但有什么关系?
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                人生就是需要不断地经历,不断地修复自己所有的缺陷,才能不断地成长、强大。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                这种成长和强大是由内而外的,而不是浮于表面的那些外人看着所谓的独立或者飒爽。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                她从没有一刻像现在这样,内心如此平静及笃定过。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                蒋牧做的意面,她煲的汤,她分为两份,和韩召意一人一份吃了,然后母子二人洗澡、讲故事、睡觉。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                韩召意前所未有的乖巧,甚至睡前,还主动要求明天去幼儿园上学。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “头不疼了?”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “不疼了。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “好,明天送你去上学。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                又讲了一会儿故事,韩召意睡着了,她才起身回自己的房间。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                手机上有好几条信息,有伊雯发来的,也有程少帆发来的,两人倒是默契,一个在森洲,一个在京城,却是同一时间发来的,
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                伊雯:还好吗?
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                程少帆:又可以拥抱森林了,恭喜。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                消息很灵通,竟然这么快就知道她和蒋牧分手了。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                她没理会程少帆,反正明天去公司见着他肯定还的说,所以只回复伊雯:“很好,和平分手。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “以后什么打算?”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “没有打算,好好工作,好好带韩召意。”别的都不重要了。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                伊雯什么也没说,只发了一个加油的表情包。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                韩召意恢复得还算不错,第二天自己早早起来穿好衣服等妈妈送他去幼儿园。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                韩栗有些于心不忍:“再请假三天,等伤口彻底好了再去吧。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                她怕去了伤口感染了就麻烦了。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “可以吗?”韩召意期待地问,他今天早上起来其实就后悔了,但是因为昨天答应妈妈了,所以今天还是起来了,男子汉说话要算话。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “这次因为你受伤了才可以请假,平时不能随便请假。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “我知道,谢谢妈妈。”韩召意一高兴,过来抱住韩栗。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “但妈妈今天工作会很忙,你跟我去公司可以吗?”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                “可以,可以。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                只要不上学,去哪都开心。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                赵霆行并不知韩栗和蒋牧已经分手,所以第二天早上没过来,只是发了一条短信给韩栗,提醒她韩召意需要吃的消炎药。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                韩栗不看短信,所以没看到。但是到了中午的时候,收到赵霆行微信申请好友的信息,她直接忽略了没通过,有事电话联系即可。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                中午,程少帆到她办公室来,要请她和韩召意吃饭,韩召意现在也不像以前那样跟他熟了,甚至没有任何人提示的情况下,自己从程爸爸改为程叔叔了。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                程少帆大为受伤:“小招财,你知道你以前为什么叫我程爸爸吗?不是因为我和你妈妈的关系,而是因为你干妈的关系,懂吗?快叫程爸爸。”
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                作者的话:蒋牧暂时告一段落,对所有喜欢他的朋友们说声对不起,也对最近一直追更的朋友们说声对不起,辛苦你们了。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                这篇小说是很传统的言情小说,但经常收到很多朋友的私信或者评论,说看这本小说治愈了她们,我想是因为在谈情说爱之下,大家看到了女性成长的另一面。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                虽有拔高的嫌疑,但确实也是我在努力表达成长的一面,听澜从一个小助理成长为律所合伙人,走的每一步大家都看得到,垚垚靠家庭背景庇护的天之骄女在家庭巨变之后的坚强、以及面对东哥过往的豁达都是一个成长;韩栗事业有成,却又执着于爱情,爱而不得,所以安排了一个近乎完美的蒋牧给她,让她去体验,去经历,但最终又被现实击垮,现实告诉她,爱情没那么重要,她的人生可以有很多的选择,她悟到这一点是成长。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                人生其实就是经历,想不被骂,不受伤,不犯错,那只能什么都不做,但什么都不做,只能一直原地踏步,当然这也没问题,是一种人生选择;但有些人愿意尝试,哪怕知道会千疮百孔,因为知道,突破这些,又是一个新的天地。
                                
                        
                        

                        
                                        
                                所以我们尊重彼此,尊重任何思想的存在。